My life as a new author has been crazy. A few months ago I was walking around dead, not really knowning what I wanted to do with my life anymore. Yes I’m a preschool teacher, but it was not fullfilling me. It was not what I dreamt about when I was a little girl. I had written Hold on Tight and let a couple of people read it, they all suggested I publish it, but I didn’t have enough faith in myself to do that.
Then one day at work our accountant asked me “What are you doing with your life?” It was a simple question that had a simple answer: “Nothing.” I knew I had to do something, something to get me out of my funk. It was as if the heavens opened up that day. To top it off as I got in my car my iPod decided to play Walk by the Foo Fighters, I don’t know why but it spoke to me like it never had before. All of the sudden the words began to hit home. I had to learn to walk again. I got home that day and pulled out Hold on Tight and began to edit it. Everything started falling into place. I found the book Becoming an Indie Author by Zoe Winters, which became my bible. I got on twitter and began to follow other authors, bloggers, and readers. I have met the coolest people there. I’ve recieved so much help from other authors, it has been surreal.
I began to smile again. I was happy, something I hadn’t felt in such a long time. I wasn’t just walking around like a zombie anymore, I was alive again. Don’t get me wrong, I would still have my tiny moments of doubt, but they were very small. I remember one day telling my husband, I’m not supposed to be the girl that’s supposed to live out her dreams, I’m the girl that keeps her dreams in her head. Right after I said those words out loud I was over any doubts, because I realized how stupid it is to think like that. Thanks to the support of most of my family and my friends I went full steam ahead without any fears.
Now here I am three months later and my book has been officially released on Amazon.com. And in couple of days it will be on iBooks, Barnes and Noble, Sony reader and many other places. It’s so freaky. I’ve been going through so many emotions since I found my book on Amazon. Everytime someone tells me they got my book, I cheer and then I panic. Of course my 1st fear is that they won’t like it. But I have to let go of that fear and just enjoy witnessing my dream become my reality.;